Please this cannot possibly be true.
That this evil person I see isn’t you.
How did it take me forever to see?
That this evil just happens to reside inside of me.
Lord, spare me from this excruciating pain.
I can no longer hold it together, its driving me insane.
Please relieve me from all of my guilt and my shame.
Now that I’m aware, I’ve only got myself to blame.
I’m determined to restore myself only for the good.
How I dream of living and feeling the way I know I should.
I’m desperately seeking, needing the power to heal.
I know this numbness is not how I’m supposed to feel.
Always so distant and withdrawn.
I ache to feel your presence.
Without you, all hope is gone.
No longer angry for the hands i have been dealt.
I obsessively long for happiness.
The kind to make my heart melt.
I crave to feel your grace.
Finally able to wear a genuine smile upon my face.
Kindly lend me some of your strength and power.
So I may leave my corner in which I constantly cower.
With my new and ever growing faith,
I’m starting to feel a little bit more safe.
I’m continuously working on your belief.
Hopefully, if I succeed I may thankfully at some point find some relief.