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I just can’t care anymore.

I struggled for too long,

And now I’m exhausted.

You pushed me unrelentlessly,

Forcing me down paths,

To a life I never wanted.

Your path led to cliffs,

Reaching so high,

Nealy touching the Heavens.

I looked back at you,

And I smiled for I knew,

I finally had a choice.

Wasted Days

Midnight.

Today had such promise.

Finally, my room would be arranged.

My laundry, done.

I would learn french, play the accordion, and finally take on the world.

That was the promise.

1pm and I’m still in bed.

Time slowly ticks by.

The light is streaming in assaulting my eyes but I still cannot move.

By 5pm I am dragging myself downstairs;

The hunger is too much to bear.

My back is aching begging for stimulation.

Mask it with pills.

Midnight.

My room is untouched.

Laundry sits in piles.

I only speak english, play no accordion and the world has again bested me.

Today had such promise.