Nan you sadly passed away on the 30th April 2009.

You changed so rapidly it kills me to think about, one day you’d be fine just your normal self and then the next you did’nt even know who we were, you were slowly going crazy, seeing people that just were’nt there and walking out in the garden at six in the morning in the rain,with nothing on but your tiny knighty. You even tried to jump out of your bedroom window because you thought your husband (my grandad) was going to hurt your daughter, his daughter. You had been married to him for over 60 years. Then within about a week you were taken into hospital, you were very weak and we were told that your kidney was failing and you just could’nt eat or drink. Everybody knew that it would’nt be long. Then finally we were told she was coming home. She was in her hospital bed because she could’nt walk, she could’nt do anything for herself. I guess i felt scared really thats why i kept away, i could’nt bare to see you like that. When i got the phone call saying she’d passed away i felt like someone had ripped my heart clean out. I told mum that i’d come to nans house to give her a bit of support really. We arrived and i walked in and i could smell you. I walked into the room saw grandad who just looked overwhelmed with shock. Then mum turned to me and said shes going in an hour so do you want to say bye. I just burst out into tears because i just could’nt believe what she was asking. Grandad said its alright you don’t have to, not everyone wants to do that. But i never got to see you before you left, i thought to myself why would i want to say bye when your not there anymore, but i plucked up the curage to go into the room you were in, i just stood their staring to start with then when everyone left me and my sister and mum to say goodbye, i kissed you on your head, you were so cold, said i loved you, later they took your body.  I didn’t get to say bye to you nan when you were alive because I was too wrapped up in my own little world and i was selfish and took you for granted and now well its just too late!!!!!!