I watched as he gathered her up,

Love filling his eyes.

He kissed her gently on the head,

Then whispered in her ear he loved her before saying good bye,

My heart shattered into a million pieces as I watched tears formed in his eyes.

In all the time I had known him I had never seen this side,

Now that I had seen it he was leaving both our sides.

I knew this was coming,

I knew one day he would have to leave,

I knew I would be left with there pieces of my heart to mend by myself,

And our little girl to raise.

Even though he had warned me some time ago not too get to close,

Even though he kept no secret on how it all would end,

The only thing he didn’t warn me,

The only thing I didn’t know,

Was how it would hurt me so.

He told me to go on with my life without him,

Not to wait for his return,

I tried so very hard but no one compared to him.

They didn’t laugh the same,

Didn’t fuss like him,

Didn’t look at me like he did,

I’ve found every reason not to let them in.

The truth is it wasn’t them that fell short,

The issues were all with me,

I am just not over the man I love,

The one who never loved me.

I knew it was coming,

That I would have to at least try,

Go out on dates,

Pretended to laugh when I wanted to cry,

But the memories won’t let me be.

I doubt they ever will,

I doubt I will ever find piece.

Still I have to keep looking,

Don’t give up he would say,

I knew I’d have to move on one day,

It was how it had to be,

The only thing I didn’t know …

Was how it would hurt me.

Now I’ve put back up my walls,

Put distance between us,

Trying my best to forget him,

Or at least make him feel the same hurt.

Gotta pretend that the memories never were,

Fool myself into thinking it was all a dream,

I knew this would happen,

I knew that I would have to let him go,

I knew there was no place in his life,

Knew there would be no happy ending for us,

Still the only thing I didn’t know,

Was how love could hurt so much.