The pain

I want to cause more pain then he did.

If I could get the blade out I would,

but I made to many promises.

If I went a cut deeper a night ago,

I would be gone.

I wish I would have made that cut.

I made the mistake,

and now my life is messed up.

I want the life like I had before.

I don’t want to be with him,

I just want to be happy again.

I can say that someone has a pretty good life.

If I only I didn’t make the mistake and loose everyone.

This pain isn’t just hurting me…

its hurting my family and my friends.

I want to give myself the pain and the abuse.

I don’t want it from everyone else.

If you want to cause more pain or abuse…

just think maybe they have had enough.

I have learned the hard way,

that pain that others cause isn’t a fun thing to deal with.

I want this pain to go away.

If I wanted pain o would cause my own.

The pain everyone causes hurts multiple people.