July 19th, Sunday

I know this might sound egotistical, but…
My Wrath ought not to be tested.
The words not said, doesn’t mean its gone.
The thoughts not expressed, doesn’t mean its okay.
The smiles seen, doesn’t mean I forget.
I might have repressed it,
But that doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten it.
A person’s heart could only hold in so much,
The valve could be unleashed any instant,
When you find it brimming to the top,
Yet u still fire it up,
You’re definitely looking for wrath
And you don’t want me to unleash my wrath
You will regret it.
Because, I’m not who may seem to be.
I am capable of anything.
I can be vicious.
I can be cruel.
I can be evil.
Hatred is the source of my power.
Don’t belittle me.
Don’t threaten me.
Don’t even try abusing your power or status.
That’s not going to get you anywhere,
The only thing you’ll meet is vicious wrath.
I have enough of your oppression,
Enough of your threats.
Enough of your abuse.
You said you apologized for everything before.
Trying to turn over a new leaf, you say.
Well, I say, BULLSHIT.
You NEVER did change,
I now wonder whether you were even sorry.
You were always what you were,
That same old person.
Capable of nothing,
Words mean nothing to you,
It’s all an act,
Nothing is done at all,
Nothing is changed,
Nothing at all,
All you’ve done
Is to hide in your shell
Hide behind the shadows of others
Others who are changing
Others who are growing
Others who are getting stronger
When our shadows could no longer hide you,
You realize you have nothing
You try to hang on desperately
Using those old tricks,
But I’m telling you now, man,
It’s not going to work now.
I’m severing my ties with you.
You no longer can hold me back,
Belittle me, threaten me or abuse your power against me.
I’m stronger now,
I can fight you,
And I can win.
You’re fighting a losing battle,
Stop with all the crap
And realize this
I’m not that little girl anymore.
I have a mind of my own.
I’m no longer under your influence.
I’m free now.
Nothing you do can change that.
Nothing you do can undo me.
Nothing.
You have nothing over me now.
You’re powerless.
The words you say are empty, meaningless,
Ok, perhaps the only thing you CAN do now,
Is to bring upon my wrath.
But that’s all.
What I can’t believe is that,
You are so shallow,
So degrading you are to yourself,
To even think, you could use that to manipulate me.
But I have to say I’m sorry,
Cuz the only thing you did was to break that torrent of thoughts,
Awful memories resurfacing, bringing light into perspective.
Forcing me to take that step,
To break away from you for good.
You should be taught a lesson,
You should know your place,
Don’t take advantage of the silence,
It’s always waiting to pounce.
Ironically, I would still have to thank you,
For focusing my mind,
Hardening my resolutions,
And opening my eyes to the naked reality.