This beautiful silence hurts This feeling a painful sting  Hate and love coming in spurts Memories and flashbacks an unpleasant ring 

Time goes by yet time seems still The fear of life still setting inEven though it’s against my willIt’s the reason why I sin

The sun no longer seems to shineThough there’s all this love inside my heartLove that no longer feels like mine This moment sour yet tart

Wishing for love and happiness doesn’t workDarkness always overwhelms me Being okay just an occasional perkThe object of life just to be free 

Feeling alone though surrounded by soulsThese thoughts never far behindIn my heart there is a hole These days too long I do find

Alone in the night, my only company the stars Brain and heart not working togetherYet I know I have come farIt’ll cut through me like a knife forever