I really don’t know what to do

My chest is so tight and my heart just feels sore

I have a lump in my throat

It never goes away

I’m feel totally useless

I’ll never be good enough

No matter how hard I might try

I just want to cut

I have all these emotions

And I don’t know what to do with them

All the hurt

The pain

The guilt

I don’t deserve to be here

I’m too numb

I don’t even know how to cry anymore

I want to

But the tears never come

The thing is, I can feel them

I just wish I can cry

Feel

Think

Love

I just want to wash away all the negative emotions

I just want to feel clean

I can’t stand hearing all these voices

Constantly nagging in my head

There making me go insane

I just want to be a better person

I want to be wanted

To be loved

To be normal

I don’t want to feel the way I do

Feeling like I can’t cope

I’m always on edge

Wondering

I can feel it in my tummy

The butterflies of fear

Please my friend make it go away

I want to cut deeper

Deeper than I’ve ever done before

I just want to make it all go away

My life go away

I want to my life to run away, with the flow of the blood

I can’t go back to hating myself

I can’t go back to hiding from the mirrors

I can’t go back

My friend.