I’m failing to let go

Oh, how the universe knows.

Ive tried, and cried, with no pride to hide.

I’m hanging on to a thread,

A singular thought encircles my head.

The parasitic dream state, as I toss in my bed,

Though rather than release, I endure the agony instead.

A pattern of thought, as my insides rot.

A shell of a human devoid of a soul

Eyes have lost luster, turned back as coal.

Remain at a distance, away from the hopes of others,

For negativity engulfs all dreams, then smothers.

So I sit in contemplation; the continuation of the manipulation

to the creation of this situation.

Seducing my head with lies to often said.

Behind in a race, I’m losing my pace,

As sweat drips down my face, in an unrecognizable place.

Yet again, in my head, no light is bled,

As I hand onto this thread, stained red,

That I dread to shed.