One day I knew it! It all was said and done, by the look on his face I just knew he was ready to run. 

Like an old pair of shoes being thrown out at the end of the day, he no longer wanted me and I was being thrown away.

The one that I cherished and said I would love till the end. On one summer day he became my enemy, and no longer a husband, lover or even friend.

I could not believe it; my heart could not pound, for it was broken by the betrayal all around.  I tried to understand and tried to comprehend, but in my heart and soul I knew my love for him I could not mend. 

How could he betray me and cast a shadow on our life, when he promised to love me, protect me and made a vow that I would always be his wife.  The words “I no longer love you” and “you’re no longer my concern” made me realize I am now truly all alone. 

I shuttered to think as he walked out the door what will I tell the children now that you no longer love me anymore?  He said I don’t care, it is time to live my life and after 24 years I no longer want you for my wife. I crumbled to the floor with the pain in my soul saying please dear god help me I am no longer whole.

Minutes felt like hours and hours felt like days as I tried to come to terms with this but my head was but a haze.  I will hide it from the children for as long as I can, I did not want them to know their father was not a loyal man.

I kept the pain inside and a smile on the out, even though there were times I just wanted to scream, yell and shout.  He is a coward and a cheater, the most despicable of men, but I realized that it was my children I must defend.

I cried in silent and the pain I could not stand, but after months if sorrow and few to understand, I decided I will no longer cry for a man.  It was not easy but I knew to me I must be true, for what good am I, if I keep holding on to you. 

I will banish you from my life and be much better in the end.  I now have the power to no longer let myself pretend.

I am getting much attention and am feeling very proud, I now stand alone and yet I stand out in a crowd. 

I am making better choices and now you are regretting, but you are the one who left me and now you don’t like that I am no longer fretting.

I mustered up the courage to create a better life but now the cheater is sorry, that I am no longer his wife.