Time passing, everlasting,, my heart sinks with such certain demise….

I….. there is no “I”…

I simply remain in a world so unfree,,, so forsaking,

I gave my life away….  such a very long time ago………..

Then,..  the kids came, one by one.

What a miracle it was, each and every one …  

I Love you Guys so much…….

And then back to the bad……  The feelings of such despair, complete demise, like I would die at any minute………

I was young then, I was so young…. I was alone alot, I am alone now and yet now, now, I wish to be………

so Johnny comes over the other night, all hell breaks loose…………….

I’m done……  I’m sooo done……..

Who will respect my shit??

I want to live on, after I’m gone, I want them to remember me…..

no one will do that for me………..

My niece cannot handle it… I’m an awful person for asking her….

so I guess I do what everyone else does, and I die alone……

We all die alone….  I’m afraid but I know how I know why, I know,,,,,,,,,,,,,

nothing………………………….