I’m standing in sea of sadness where I’m drowning in loneliness.

Opened my eyes, too many problems

I’m wearing dynamite necklace and dreaming

someone else will come and

defend me from myself but it’s too late.

Looking through distance between my life,death

and me,so long and for eternity.

I walk alone these empty streets

there is not a second,no one with me.

I have been rejected,

With drooping head I try to mingle in crowd but

people pass without noticing me and

I doubt,have I ever been me alive?

Left alone in this place so dead

Playing hide and seek with coffins of this land.

My own shadow tries to escape from me,

I struggled to set myself free from forlornness,

but can’t because it circulates with my blood.

Loneliness is evident from my whole body,

I run toward woods to hide myself in it’s grove,

I proceed ocean to lost in it’s waves

but if trees are vulnerable and ocean is anhydrous then

how can they fill me?

I love to hate myself,

when animal inside me becomes alive on my solitary,

and grows wild,instead of attacking others I hurt myself.

Sadness is beautiful as it flies away on the wings of time

and loneliness is tragical,I’m so weak to win this war.

These wounds are so deep,it’s too much that

even time can not heal then

what people will dig out of me?

Periodically,I think is this real? or just fantasy land

but truth is always bitter pill to swallow.

Now,my own tears cry on me and I wonder

to be adult is to be alone.

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  • cyborgwar on Feb 8, 2012

    woww good image….i like the image but i don’t like alone…

  • marqjonz on Feb 8, 2012

    Very strong opening lines. You got my attention at once.

  • avissado on Feb 8, 2012

    hey how are you?

  • Lisa Marie Mottert on Feb 8, 2012

    Expressive and strong.
    Is everything alright?

  • CHIPMUNK on Feb 8, 2012

    to be lonely is by choice if you want to be alone then that is different to being isolated it can ruin you if you don’t want to be alone

  • pattiann on Feb 8, 2012

    Nice. Beautiful pictures. Do not worry that you will be alone. I am an adult and I have my mom and sister then when my mom dies I am supposed to go live with my sister and her family, but I plan on going to a commune in France.

  • ChuzNul on Feb 8, 2012

    nice poem

  • lovinglyoursjuny on Feb 8, 2012

    Great lines-

    “I love to hate myself,

    when animal inside me becomes alive on my solitary,”

    I like these lines :p

  • Vinaya says good bye on Feb 8, 2012

    How true. I have left my younger days, I’m adult now and these days I feel lonely.

  • angelji on Feb 8, 2012

    to be adult calls for maturity and belief in yourself. Am always here for you..you are beautiful and love by god.

  • Safa on Feb 8, 2012

    Very nice poem and saddening as well. You don’t have to be alone and depressed all the time. Even if you are an adult, you still have people to be with. Go hang out with family and friends. Have fun.

  • misterdd on Feb 9, 2012

    very nice aroosa like allways. i like pictures and your poetry. but once again, i must say that again i am even more happy if other people are happy, so be happy :) this is good for you and for others, you can do that :) go aroosa go aroosa :) and you scored and win :)

  • mevlanamarshall on Feb 9, 2012

    eing adult is sures something. its a bad thing that we cant reject :’(

  • mevlanamarshall on Feb 9, 2012

    being adult is sures something. its a bad thing that we cant reject :’(

  • Martin Kloess on Feb 9, 2012

    You don’t know lonely until you have been ultra-popular.

  • rgreenfield on Feb 9, 2012

    sometimes, it is just good to be a kid again.

  • erwinkennythomas on Feb 9, 2012

    devastating! loneliness is sad

  • nita kusuma dewi on Feb 9, 2012

    nice article

  • dwisuka on Feb 9, 2012

    so sad. are you ok?

  • Aroosa Gloomy on Feb 10, 2012

    @dwisuka no I’m no ok

  • realityspeaks on Feb 10, 2012

    ‘Alone is a state of being!. Don’t worry! Everything will be alright Aroosa.

  • mdrkarim7 on Feb 10, 2012

    Brilliant and nice pictures…

  • sheilanewton on Feb 10, 2012

    Oh, Aroosa – his is so poignant and the images go so well with your poetry. But, gir, I do worry about you. I hope these are not your thoughts and feelings. Take care, honey. Please TAKE CARE, my beautiful writer and artist.

  • Eliza26 on Feb 10, 2012

    Poignant words.

  • Ruby Hawk on Feb 10, 2012

    Life can be lonely. but you can meet people and find friends, find hobbies that interest you, read good books, help others who are worse off than you and are lonely. Find a purpose and devote yourself to making the world a better place. it might be helping children with their studies, cheering up old folks, giving time to a homeless shelter, Everyone can do something to benefit themselves and others and find happiness in doing that.

  • Aroosa Gloomy on Feb 10, 2012

    @Martin I know it’s strange that I’m known and still call myself lonely but this is my wretchedness.Even Albert Einstein said,”It’s strange to be known universally and yet to be lonely.”I know everyone knows me on Triond but the feeling of loneliness is in my veins.

  • ebasearticles on Feb 10, 2012

    nice images.. i like it

  • tonyleather on Feb 10, 2012

    Whereon earth does so much sadness come from in somebody so young?

  • avissado on Feb 10, 2012

    here again to click on the like button too. cheers

  • Dora77 on Feb 10, 2012

    Dear Aroosa,the biggest battle won is lost with sadness coming from outside and the largest sacrifice one can do is to smile from inside when things are bad.
    Your Poetry speaks Volumes,but i wish if could celebrate life,you’re still too young! Go Live Life Dear! Give up on Sadness,,,,this is my first comment to you,but i would like to say-I Love You girl! Keep the good work….Dora xx

  • Siti cholifah on Feb 11, 2012

    Nice poem…

  • Aroosa Gloomy on Feb 11, 2012

    @tonyleather there are million of people in this world who are wretched like me or more then me.

  • rottenxminer on Feb 11, 2012

    cool

  • xphantoms on Feb 11, 2012

    Very good

  • Tulan on Feb 11, 2012

    I think you glory in your sadness, maybe it isn’t sadness at all.

  • Ixodoi on Feb 12, 2012

    I must agree with sheilanewton, I really like your writing, but you make me extremely worried about you.

    And remember being lonely is a decision you make – you can change it. It’s not easy, but you don’t have to be lonely. Try to find people you can talk too – that will understand you, and make them you true friends.

  • aisha jamal on Feb 12, 2012

    yar bohat allaaaaaaaaa likha hy love ur writing ,……………..

    n ab kis bt ki lonliness u have got ur soulmate hena

  • Aroosa Gloomy on Feb 12, 2012

    aisha jamal u won’t understand baby.If u gonna dig for million years still u won’t.

  • Hakarus on Feb 12, 2012

    Honey why are u so depressed?Why are u alone.u r still young.I’m worried about u.Plzz smile and keep rejoice feelings.Be merry:)
    :)

  • Hakarus on Feb 12, 2012

    Not like this
    :(
    Like
    this
    :)
    u understand baby?

  • vickylass on Feb 12, 2012

    Excelent poem. You should put them together to make up a book and perhaps try self-publish it with Tradfford -a feiend of mine did it and not only he had all the money he had spent back, but he earned a bit . Thanks for sharing.

  • HannanRKhan on Feb 12, 2012

    I like it

  • webseowriters on Feb 12, 2012

    a daring dairy

  • CutezSoNia on Feb 13, 2012

    nice poem…

  • juliachild on Feb 14, 2012

    great share

  • ittech on Feb 14, 2012

    interesting writing again . Thnx for sharing .

  • girishpuri on Feb 14, 2012

    great write up

  • ebasearticles on Feb 15, 2012

    Nice Articles.. Like Me

  • ittech on Feb 15, 2012

    thanks for share

  • CutezSoNia on Feb 15, 2012

    Awesome share.

  • dodolbete on Feb 16, 2012

    indeed… that’s why I keep on telling my self, “Who’s afraid of loneliness?! I won’t let it conquer me.” ^_^

  • Ike Anggorowati on Feb 16, 2012

    wow…nice

  • Thell Stars on Feb 18, 2012

    be strong we have big family here in triond

  • Dreamy777 on Feb 18, 2012

    awesome like always

  • nurzaira on Feb 18, 2012

    nice

  • Abudzar alghifari on Feb 18, 2012

    nice share :)

  • ittech on Feb 19, 2012

    XLNT

  • lauralu on Feb 20, 2012

    Dear Aroosa. I hope you are not really that sad, your photos
    are exceptional.
    The fish in the fish bowl swimming around said. “I am dYing
    without water I can’t find any water he didn’t realize he was living in the water,God is as near as air if you are breathing talk to him He loves you and he shows it in so many ways, twenty years ago I would never have beleived I could talk to you on a computer, you have friends you are not alone, smile. ^–^
    I

  • ittech on Feb 21, 2012

    Sounds great.

  • Angelji on Feb 22, 2012

    My god Aroosa i have read this poem many times just only now i notice that i was not able to leave a comment , pls don’t feel bad…
    Yes to be adult is to be alone..because you know why? Because you are big gal now . ! Can have a sound judgment and responsible already. You need to be alone to stand for yourself and fight ! When no ones fights for you still you won’t stumble down because you have yourself to fight for your own.

  • rjnjlly on Feb 24, 2012

    Lovely thoughts but sad? Is truth always so sad? I read Vinaya’s interview article about you and ever since I am wondering, what is it that has made you so pessimistic? For a girl your age when one is in the blossoming age what is it that has hurt you so deep so as to cause such hurt and gloominess.

    My heart goes out to you though I like this poem and the pictures vouch for the mental state you are experiencing.

    Take life as it comes. It is a mixture of happiness and sadness.

  • FX777222999 on Feb 24, 2012

    A sad and gloomy future of being an adult.

  • nurzaira on Feb 27, 2012

    i came again..
    your poem is sadly.. but you are right to be adult is to be alone..

  • sapna the dream on Feb 27, 2012

    nice lines friend

  • alexiafeatherchild on Mar 5, 2012

    Melancholy, I sort of felt that reading this.

  • JMorgan071 on Mar 5, 2012

    As a child, you have many friends. It almost like as life goes on you lose more friends then you gain. Hm.

  • yana on Mar 13, 2012

    There is a big contrast between your articles. I wonder how you do this?! A big variety of subjects, moods and all this – so well combined! You got my admirations!

  • EMoll on Mar 13, 2012

    i think adulthood is a journey that never ends and one must embrace this before he finds himself young in an old body. You have a way to make it work for you though. Keep the spirit high and burning fly. lol.

  • Dhegen on Mar 24, 2012

    good share

  • Cassle Tang on Mar 25, 2012

    I feel a very strong feeling in this poem. Great job! No matter how you feel, I’m pretty sure you have friends every where. You might haven’t realized it, but they are exist.

  • pulsananda on Mar 28, 2012

    Nice posting Aroosa
    but that’s not necessarily true..,
    Keep fighting
    :)

  • SerraAnnisa on Mar 28, 2012

    Cheer up!

  • Lynn Proctor on Mar 28, 2012

    You are very expressive, and the pictures you used are very poignant, probably to show how you feel. You did a very good job with your writing and your pictures both. You are suffering from obvious depression, and I wonder if you are receiving any kind of treatment for it. When you say it is in your veins, there are depressions that are chemical, in our systems. They can be caused by glandular deficiencies such as under-active thyroid. I had that in my teens and early twenties, and was writing Edgar Allen Poe type poems, very dark and dreary. I didn’t know I had a medical problem. Once I started taking thyroid medicine I started feeling better. Feelings of rejection, low self-worth, overwhelming sadness, feelings of loss and overall horribleness can be caused by medical problems. I hope you will see a doctor if you haven’t already, to get some blood tests and a physical exam. I wish you well, as I know too well the way you feel. Best to you always.

  • VV on Mar 29, 2012

    We all have our bad days, but we need to fight back and try to make things better.

  • trionny on Apr 2, 2012

    nice pictures! i like them all!

  • h4mz4h on Apr 6, 2012

    i like it

  • Dhegen on Apr 13, 2012

    keep your good work ma friend :)

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