well i use to fear death but now i welcome it inside cause living like this there is nothing but to die
I sit here and pretend I am strong that I can take it all on.  It’s not true I am just as week as you
The things I keep inside have turned my heart black and my mind to mush.  The tears just want to pour but I hold them back only my soul knows that the bleekness has control.
I hurt so bad and I hate myself for letting you know I don’t want your pity and despair. You can’t help me this is my wieght to bare.  I ask God for help to take my trouble mind and to release it from this time.  I know that he can hear me but what I really cant tell is, is he listening to me or shall i just rot in this hell
If you wonder where it is what it is really like Take a trip in my mind but where your seat belt keep your hands in the car and please control your screams cause when you get dont you’ll be brought upon your knees.  You’ll need to run and hide and you’ll say you feel for me but you’ll never want to be
you’ll never want to be me
all the torture that i keep inside has me going numb can you take this pain can my life be done
Oh how I wish I could run Run and hide never to be found run and die left lifeless on the ground
Dont ask me if I’m ok I will play it off you see I don’t want you to really know the person that is me.  Things that i see thoughts that i carry let me smile and tell you that it doesn’t really matter
Lets me keep it inside where it holds on let me keep it there where it completes me let me have it and hold for its all i really know let me keep it and love it for i feel/fear it is my soul