Getting so upset because of you,
slowly causing my stomach to be sore.
Rushing into the bathroom,
for I don’t want to throw up on the floor.

Trying to tell you several times what you did wrong,
but you no longer want to hear.
Wanting you to leave me alone,
but holding on to it so you are near.

Beginning to slowly push me away,
while making me listen to you.
Loving you for so many different reasons,
but I no longer want to be with you.

Breaking my heart more than once,
for I never wanted to see what was going on.
Knowing the truh in the back of my mind,
but by then everything was already gone.

Making up so many excuses for you,
while knowing the truth would come out one day.
Holding on to how I once felt,
while no longer knowing what to say.

Only wanting to hurt myself,
for I no longer want to feel this pain.
Never really wanting to leave you,
but now I’m trying not to go insane.

Still knowing how I feel,
but not knowing what you think.
Knowing soon I will have to tell you,
while trying to stay away from the sink.

Certain smells trying to make me sick,
but trying to block them from my mind.
Slowly telling you what is happening,
but not knowing what I am going to find.

Wishing we would not be connected,
but realizing I cannot change the past.
Hoping you will believe what I’m about to say,
for I knew this would never last.