Words whispered softly caressing my mind

taking a moment to just sit and hide

i find that i love you still to this day

i find that i feel things that i will never say

all of the hurt and the pain the world has to offer

can’t make me forget the feelings i foster

i want to feel close more then you’ll ever know

but i know not how to let this show

i’ll never know how to drop my guard

i wish i knew how to just disregard

the pain and the madness

those lies spoken from immeasurable sadness

one of these days i’ll drop this wall

one of these days i won’t be afraid of the fall

i don’t know when this will be 

i don’t have any clue who will even see

i’m forever afraid of the pain i will show

but even more afraid of letting you go

i’m pushing you away even as this is written 

i’m rewriting my story and my own description

i don’t like this pain overtaking my heart

this emotional madness i can’t seem to outsmart

i look to myself for this new start

i hope that you’ll catch me if i manage to fall

i plead that you don’t make me regret finally dropping my wall.