WHAT THEY COULD NOT SEE

He could not see beyond my laughter and smiles

A woman so afraid to try again yet unafraid to take a chance

Every time I fling myself out there for a taste of love

You might as well throw me out there naked

Because that is what I am: naked and vulnerable

He could not see the shower of tears waiting to fall

He must get to know me inside and out blindly

Groping for the sustenance he desires me to feed him

That sustenance comes from my words and from me

Oh do not be afraid of the rawness

I will not bite but it may sting

A sting of what your soul cries out for

You would never have to cry

If only he could see me

Beneath me truly

Ragged skeleton

That I can sometimes be

The journey leaves bones behind

Picked on, dried and useless as decorations

On the landscapes of the past

They could not see

But maybe you will peer beneath the smile

Winter is hard, my friend

I will say it again

Winter is a cold playground

Its icy fingers beg to play

Playing another game of chivalry

I glance away at the snow falling against the windowpanes

Your arms are tight and wound around me

I cannot speak…I cannot hear…I cannot see

The soft brush of your lips against mine

Allows me the moment to do nothing but feel

 I find a new way to communicate

Trembling through the tangling new vines of love

I feel the desire to flee and let go

But something has got me this time

This time, he did not overlook what could lie

Behind the confidence of this girl

Yes, perhaps this time

I have erased the girl with the snowflakes falling on her tears

Singing the crystal cold sad song of saying goodbye

This time, I am singing an angel’s song of bliss.

© Frangelica