Hate runs deep through my veins.
It is a poison I can not deny any longer.
The pain stabs at my being like a knife through the skin.
It punctures deep.
My nose hurts as tears whelm up into my eyes.
I can no longer hold back the tears.
Love is only like the flutter of a butterfly’s wings.
It is up and down slowly and gently.
It can be stopped on a second notice through harsh words.
It hides in the distance, slow to make its appearance.
Through my dreams it comes to me.
It offers me everything I want, desire and need.
Reality comes to light upon the awakening.
I am lonely. I am sad. I am angry.
I begin to search the darkened corners of my mind.
I am looking for the person I left behind.
Who was he?
Was there anyone for me?
Did I overlook him?
Was it too late when he noticed me?
I remember the words we shared as children.
Destiny made itself clear but I did not have the patience.
I ran fast forward before my time.
I lost sight of what was in store for me.
I made my path to walk upon.
I made mistakes every inch I stepped.
I still ponder that day in my head and heart.
I remember when I saw him.
He noticed me when I walked into the crowded room.
That is what I missed. I know it.
I want to love you.
I want us to be happy.
Happiness is knowing each other.
It is knowing what we like, knowing what we feel, knowing how we think.
It is being able to complete each other’s sentence.
It is knowing when to hold each other, knowing when to shut up.
Happiness is… knowing when the other needs to feel passion; knowing when to laugh, cry and be silent.
What are we?
We have neither love nor happiness.
We have no peace.
We have no sense of timing with each other.
We are lost souls walking the earth.
We are lost in time.
We lost our moment.
We feel nothing that makes us whole.
We are lost vessels.