Although he looked harmless

I knew he was a dreadful angel

He was holding me too tight

he let me hurt so much

It was simply another case of trickiness

he had forgotten the loneliness

‘if you scream I’m gonna kill you’

I knew he could do it

with his cold face and empty eyes

Then there was the pain

A breaking and entering when even the senses are torn apart

Could I tell vouluntarily?

I knew that because the terrible pain assured me

I couldn’t

I loved him so much I’d never hurt him

he released me

I thought I had died

I thought if I could face

the worst danger I would forever have power over it

I was hurt

and for a time felt lonelier than ever

What he did to me

and what I allowed

must have been very bad

I longed for death

I despised the man

I never want to hear thiss situation

nor that evil man’s name mentioned

The tears didn’t soothe my heaart as they usually did

The act of rape had triumphed