We talked for hours

Laughed and flirted

Plan and hope that we’d meet

Went separate parties and had lots of fun

But I never thought

You’d break my heart

To tell me

That you drank and smoke way too much

Asked out a girl

For only knowing her that night

Verses talking to me

For over two months

But I understand

That I was your rebound

To pick you up for when Kelsey had torn you down

I thought wrong

I thought you really cared

And liked me because you liked me

But I’ll always be that friend

That wanted you as a boyfriend

But as I know now

The truth

I’ll guard myself

To where you’ll never know

Me fully

I’d like to say for you

To forget I ever existed

But you refuse to let me run

As I want to run and hide to cry away my pain

You so kindly gave me

I would like my heart back

Healthy but instead

You gave me a heart

That bleeds everyday and all day

From now to the day I die

I wish I knew better

I wish I didn’t trust you

But that is my fault

And I’ll never make the mistake with you again

Or I hope not

I wish I could erase you from my life

But I don’t want that either

I’d cry an ocean if I could

But I shouldn’t waste a tear on you

You do not deserve my tears

For you don’t care but for yourself

I do not want to hear

Why you can’t find a good girl

When I was right in front of you

Waiting patiently

You’ll learn when it becomes your first regret

I am sorry

Depending on this weekend

Depends on your decisions

If I’ll stay or leave and disappear for good

No matter if you want me here or gone

It’s not your choice anymore

But mine to make

And run with no regrets

I hope you understand

But I am afraid you won’t and that’s okay

By: Virginia Marie Thompson