Don’t you already know how I feel deep inside?
Can’t you tell when my words mask the pain that I hide?
Do I hide it so well that you need me to say?
How tormented and messed up my mind is today?
When I tell you I’m fine do my eyes say the same?
Or are they empty and cold as they hide all the blame
Do you cringe when you think I may need some advice?
Do you try to avoid things and pretend it’s alright?
Is this just paranoia and low self esteem?
That’s destroying my soul and my health and well being
Can I find my way out from this dark lonely pit?
How long will it take and how low will I hit?
I’ve forgotten the days when my heart shone so bright
And the days when I’d laugh through the day and the night
I wish I could find my light down deep within
That seems to be fading and shining so dim
I’ll try not to fail I’ll keep searching for truth
I’ll try to rekindle the joys of my youth
And if I succeed just imagine the scene
A smile and persona of a soul pure and clean