It’s a long cold rainy night. The shower of raindrops on the rooftop deafens my ears and the dimmed light seems to blur my vision. I entered a room so gloomy yet tranquil. As I was dragging my feet around the room, I happened to pass by this lonesome reflection. An image that seemed too ironic to look at. With his big red shiny nose, hair that’s wavy and messy yet colorful, and a face so white with make-up and an overgrown painted red lips. But other than these flambouyant and playful colors, I looked closer at him and was able to notice a trail of tears flowing down his gloomy dark brown eyes. I sat in front of him and began asking;
“Are you okay?”,He sarcastically nodded a reply.
I smiled and said, “What happened to you? You’re not meant for crying. This is just not like you. This morning I saw you with your wide contagious smile as you went out there to do your usual thing, but now here you are with such a long face with no trace of joy. Tell me a joke! come on!… make me laugh hard and…” I stopped as he looked at me. There’s no trace of emotion on his face except for those never ending tears.

“Am i not human to you?”, he questioned seriously. I was strucked by what he said,i don’t know what to answer. “You may always see me giggle, tell a hilarious joke till you drop dead laughing, and ride along with nonsense things to make you happy. But have you ever wonder what’s behind this smile, these color-striken outfits, these playful character? Yes I’m a joker… but i have a heart that feels, a conscience that haunts, and an emotion to love. These laughters doesn’t give you any authority to hurt me.” I remained speechless, is this the joker i knew?
He wiped his tears and continued talking. “The day before I was full of energy, inspired, bluffing jokes and laughing hard as if no one could stop me. Everybody was laughing with me and I was fulfilled with that. Yesterday an emotion seemed familiar came up to me which made me feel secured, contented, and unbreakable. I fell in love (sobbing). That night I could wish for nothing more for I had everything beside me. I felt caress, trust, loved… forever. The morning i woke up and realized I wasn’t dreaming for everything was still there within my reach, a heartbeat away from me. Yesterday, that night ended so fast. This morning, i anticipated everything would last. We parted ways to go back home. I was confident. Everything will still be as it is, i thought. I believe in love, i thought. Seconds, minutes, hours later everything seemed quiet, still, and empty. I searched for what I had last night, the one who hugged me tight that night, the one who promised me everlasting love that night, the one who offered me forever that night. The one I had that night is not mine anymore, the one I kissed that night is not here anymore, the one who held me tight that night is nowhere in sight, not even a shadow to stare. I asked ‘why’ yet no accurate answer was given. Is this a part of a joke? Is this a way for you to laugh? Is this what you think I am for?”.
His emotions seemed strong, he’s hurt but yet i don’t know how to comfort him, he’s angry yet I don’t know how to divert that anger into laughter.
“Just forget and move on… It’s pathetic!”, I told him frankly.
He stood up, wiped his tears again and said with a seemed to be convalescing heartache, “I’m broken… for now!”
Drops of blood fell as the mirror in front of me shattered into broken pieces.