Oh The Agony Of defeat! It is quiPte possibly the most Painful emotion Yet.
I Had fallen In Love, and had let down all My guards For this Young man.
I called and called His home, where He lived with her, not having any respect
for her.I cried Bitter tears, and couldn’t even function at work as I would burst
into tears as soon as I’d see everyones smiling faces.

I was so hurt and so very angry, but mostly at myself, for allowing this to happen.
I even considered going On the Springer show, simply to confront him, and holler
You Knew You Were Married! How dare You Play with My heart like that! But instead
I locked myself up in my house, and refused to join the living. My Youngest son went
Into the Reserves, and so I had no reason whatsoever, to breathe.

But eventually I did, because I was needed back at work, and talk about a bitter
woman, I was one in the flesh. I could not smile anymore, and I would not give any
man the time of day, because of Landon. As a matter Of Fact, I swore right then and
there, that I would never ever never fall in love again. And as I write this, I can feel
the tears burn my eyes simply by remenissing.

How many years has it been?14, I believe, and very few days have gone by that I did
not think Of Him. I have moved on, and I now live a pretty peaceful and content life.
But My 2 week fling with Landon, will forever be a part of My life.I no longer wish
to confront him, Nor do I wish to turn back the hands of time either. I only wish I had
not given Him the power to hurt Me with those 3 little deceptive words…I Love You.

So How do you know when love is real? I don’t suppose You can know, because it takes
time, patience, love, and understanding, and alot of compatibility. It also takes
forgiveness, endurance and overlooking alot of human flaws. But to this day, I don’t
think anyone can prove to me that it was not real Love that I felt for Landon. Because
No one knows the length of time it takes a heart to travel from here to there.

My heart took a Jet flight straight into Landons open arms, and then crashed the moment
He let Me go.But I forgive him now, because if I hadn’t, I’d have never met my husband
of now. So I urge any woman with a similar story, to not venture into a story without
and ending. Because those are the ones we call fairytales,, as those are the most
difficult to walk away from.

                                                                          The End