But if you are having to take drugs to come down off other drugs or taking drugs to stay awake after staying up all night because you were high then you most definately have a problem. I was one of those who said they would never do drugs and made it all the way through high school without doing so.

It wasnt until I met an older guy when I was 20 he was 27 that I was introduced to the drug world. I didnt try my first drug until I was 21. I started with weed and ended up smoking entirely too much and spent my 21st birthday at the ER because of a panic attack. You would think this would have scarred me enough not to take any other drug well it didnt even come close.

Next up on the list was ecstasy and I fell in love with my first drug. Then I tried coke, meth, pills (loratabs, vicodin, xanaz) and then oxy. For me my drugs of choice were ecstasy and coke but at the height of my addiction I would take anything that was laid in front of me. Although I never took acid or heroin because quite honestly they scared the heck out of me and still do.

I am not sure when the point was in which I crossed over from a drug user to a drug addict. Maybe it was the point when I was taking 10 ecstasy pills just to get high. I was having to take xanax or smoke weed to come down off the ecstasy or coke that I was on and having to take diet pills just so I could make it through work the next day. There wasnt a piont in time that I wasnt high on something. By all odds I should not be here today.

The drugs should have taken my life. I am a fairly small female and many people have asked me today how I took that many pills and didnt od. At the end of my addicition I weighed around 80 lbs and looked like death. Everything came to a screaching hault in December of 2006 when I was 24. God had to let me loose everything that I loved so that He could get my attention.

My boyfriend the man I loved more than anything broke up with me in order to save my life from the drugs that had taken over our relationship. I am very blessed to have had several people that I didnt even know praying for me and now by the grace of God I am clean today. I am not saying that it is an easy road and I am not saying that there arent times even today that I dont think about getting high but I can say that life with Jesus Christ is better than any drug I have ever taken.