I was so drunk by the time I got to the game. My friends were shocked because I usually drink in private with just people that I know and trust. I did some stupid things, like telling off an old lady, and saying stupid things like “YAHH B*tch YAHH”, in front of everyone at the football game.

The next school day I was pulled into the Vice Priciple’s office and was told that I was on tape and that he was very disapointed in me. But there were two things that made everything worse. 1. My basketball career officially stopped [I was susspended for 6 1/2 games] and had to take a test confirming that I am not dependent on any substances [which I failed twice]. 2. My step father is a teacher at the school, so when I arrived home all I heard was, “You are so dissapointing, you make me look bad in front of my co-workers.”

So my life stopped getting fun for about 6 months. Then I started back up again. This time more excessive. It’s not that I don’t feel loved, or that I don’t get enough attention, I dont really know why I drink anymore. Another incident that just happend last weekend, I was drinking having a great time with my friends and I knew that something was going to go wrong. Well I drank way to much and started to throw up non stop.

My head felt like it wanted to shut down. I literally felt like I wanted to die to just get away. But then everything started to fall apart. Since we were getting low on alcohol I gave my last 20 dollars to the friend of a friends type deal..and they left to get some. Next thing I know I am getting a text saying LEAVE THE F*CKING WOODS!!! We are getting M.I.P’s. We took a short way back by following the railroad tracks. The cops were about 100 yards away.

I ran and ran and ran. But I still feel like I am running, and Im not going any faster…..