Just one more thought.  If you really want him, do so but remember not to give it all.  Leave at least 10% intact with you.  Bear in mind that should you ever decide to continue with your relationship with him and before you get any more deeper into things, you have to be able to take the consequences.  This is where the 10% comes in.  for things may end up for the better or for the worse.  But as I mentioned, you have to leave some for yourself to be able to bear the outcome.  There might be pain in the end- so brace yourself for it.  Go into the battle with your best armor at hand so that if things didn’t work out in the end, then at least you’d be ready and prepared for it.  If you accept from the start that this may happen, it will make things easier to handle.  It may not lessen the pain but you’ll be more able to deal with it.  Remember, whatever you decide on, you have to live with it without regrets.  And remember too, that I will be there to bear things with you in the end.  I will walk through it with you all the way.  I can only hope that things will not be too hard.  I want the best for you but if the going gets tough, learn to be tougher.

LOVE IS A MALADY that no one ever really comprehends.  There are no assurances that when we love, we’d be happy all the way.  It comes with the pain and the hurt, but it can also come with the best things in life.  People want the best that love has to offer but we don’t usually get them unless we work towards them.  There are obstacles to this, some are fated (or ill fated) but somewhere along the way, we also find the answers on how to overcome them.

As a parting thought, what do you think you’d like most?  Be with him through the end while hurting or go about your own way with being able to look back at him, at the times you’ve shared, with a smile on your face?