“I said I was sorry and that I made a poor choice, what more do you want from me?” Her tone stayed even though she was brimming with rage and trying so hard to keep her emotions in check. How is it possible to remain friends with someone that is so narrow minded and self centered? She had made a mistake, owned up to it and apologized sincerely from the heart. All had gone on deaf ears.

“I don’t believe that you are sincere in your apology at all. You are being extremely selfish and inconsiderate and you think that I should forgive you just like that? That’s absurd to think that it is even possible.” Her green eyes blazing with anger and fear of being hurt by those she cares about. She expects perfection from her friends and when they don’t live up to the expectations she is willing to write them off, rather than offer forgiveness. She realizes that if she allows forgiveness into her heart, that she is opening herself up to being hurt again. The two women stare at one another, neither bending toward the other.

“Then I guess there really isn’t anything left to say. You won’t accept my apology and I will not beg for your forgiveness. I guess you really don’t know me and I don’t really know who you are either.” The words are spoken without pause and her eyes never leave her friend’s gaze. They have known each other for years and this has been the most honest time they’ve ever shared. “I guess that you are right. Maybe we never really knew who each is and will never know after this, because I don’t want to have a friend like you in my life.” Her voice waivers ever so subtly, deep down she knows what she is really giving up. This woman has been such a dear friend and confidant and she is the one making the decision to walk away. There is more to the end of this friendship as well, it signifies a turning point in her life and how she is treating her friendships. Her stubbornness will not let her back down.

“Well…have a good life then.” It is only then that she turns her back on her once friend. She knows that the woman is letting pride rule her decision in this matter, but she doesn’t see the point in fighting it. She doesn’t want someone in her life that doesn’t believe in her. She wants friends who are willing to let those they care about make mistakes and learn and grow from them. She can’t be perfect and won’t kill herself for this girl who never owns up to her own shortcomings.

There are no more words that can be shared between these two women who have been friends for years. On the surface the argument stemmed from broken plans by one to see a boyfriend. It was a mistake that she owned up to and tried to make right. However, the one wronged is unable to forgive or believe in her once friend and accept the apology and move on. Her want of love and friends is so great that when expectations aren’t met she isolates herself from everyone. She knows that she may very well end up bitter and alone for the rest of her days, but it won’t make her change her ways. For now, nothing will.