It was the best thing for him at the time. Anywho,about 2 months after he went to live with my parents I started doing excasty and cocaine EVERYDAY. I had to have my drugs it was my life. I had my breaking point about a year in to my use, when I walked by a full length mirror in my room and I jumped cause I didn’t recongize myself.

I looked horrible, I thought someone was in my house………….I am 5′2 and weighted 87 pounds. I got in my car and drove myself to rehab. I was clean for about 2 years and had a relapse after my best friend killed herself. I started doing pain pills, was really heavy into them. It was a sick feeling to have to wake up everyday either go to the doctors office or hunt for them all day.

I would spend 8-10 hours just looking for my high, and if I couldn’t get it I would take over the counter medication just to get me bye. I found out about suboxene, and I wanted it so bad. Now just think I had alot of surgeries and within months I was hooked. I found the suboxene was just as bad. I was getting Fuped on something that was suppose to stop me from taking 28 meds a day to function. I finally said the is enough black eyes, enough of 3 times broken nose, and bruises all over the place from taking to many pills and falling.

My pshycistric thought my husband was beating on me. I needed help, I didn’t want to feel pain, so I was masking it with pills and people like my husband who only has taken asprins his whole life was floored by how the pills were becoming my life. I am a full blown addict. No matter what or how u slice the pie, I have an addictive personality and when I wasnt something I am going to get it. Thru thearpy and counseling I have overcome my pill addiction. I am suffering for the rest of my life because I wanted to get high.

I have sever depression due to excasty, Anxiety due to the excessive use of cocaine,I was doing 40 tabs a day and 3 eight balls of cocaine a day. Then I had a few surgies and get hooked on pills. Now for the first time I can say I have been drug free, taking my medication the right way (as prescribed) I am starting school soon and getting my life back on track. I have friends that do there drugs but I figure if u can’t do it and put it away then U don’t need to do it.

I just hope I may help someone who is bad off on these types of drugs to let them know that there is hope. If u believe…………….