There was so much passion between us.  I just remember thinking that I could handle that for the rest of my life with no complaints.  The heat between us was so fierce.  I just assumed it could never be extinguished, but I guess I was mistake, or was I?  I have been dying to know this and wonder if I ever would have the chance to ask him and if he would ever be totally honest and tell me the truth anyways.  Sometimes he’s not one to talk much about his feelings.

I am such a fountain of emotions that can’t and won’t stop.  Some people say I love too much while others say that my hate is too strong.  Whether who’s right or wrong, I do know one thing, my emotions often exhaust me physically and emotionally.  They tend to break me down and make my soul rugged and weary.  My longing for some sort of relief has come sporadically and uneventfully.  I have quit my steady job and resumed working for my mom at the cafe.  I love it and at the same time I’m brimming with mixed emotions and after thoughts.  There are so many emotions and memories locked in this place.  My parents bought his old house and we stay there.  I thought that would be easy, but I can’t even sleep when I’m there, and when I do it’s filled with so many thoughts of him.  I can’t believe after five years I can still remember the vivid details of things that longingly haunt my thoughts.  The day he asked me out.  All the times he broke my heart.  All the passion that filled me inside.  It keeps me tossing and turning all night.

I remember looking in your eyes and feeling my heart skip a beat and my palms start to sweat.  I couldn’t think when you were around.  My thoughts so jumbled, pouring out like I was an illiterate fool.  Sometimes I felt so stupid.  I remember the passion in your eyes lit a fire in my soul that nothing and no one could put out.  It burnt and filled me up.  Boy, I was so crazy, so crazy in love with you.  So lost in every kiss.  Melting into you, filling your soul with my presence.  God it felt unbelievable to be in your arms, lost in your eyes that pierced through me to my deepest core.  You could almost read my thoughts without a single word and it filled me with comfort.  I can almost feel you now, all around me, filling me up with a sense of serenity.