As I stormed in to the night I realized that I do not want to live like this at all. In fact I don’t want to live anymore what good is this life when the one whom I love dose not see what I see in her. I don’t care about her any more she could just die if I care. All she wants from me is to sit around and watch her use me for her own pleasure and satisfaction. I am the damp rag she uses to wipe her hand on and wipe the sweat off her forehead god knows I love her but this has spite me too much I want more I want all of her not. I do not want to share her on some days and be thrown on other my love is too true to be threaded by a man who is no man in my eyes. Why! Why! Lord, have you no sympathy for me for this! I’m I so worthless to be loved too am I am I? As I ran I did not realized it was raining so hard. Were will I go I know no one but not back there never will I return not like this not ever. I walked madly thought the rain and went aimlessly  hung from this worthless love and useless life what go is it any way that I live who is there for me nobody, nothing and no where for me to go. As I walked for three days I came to a town that I recalled a little of but not very sure of. I’m dirty, poor, tired, and hungry. I see that this is the life that I will be domed to. I see this old abandoned house ware I look in to see if there’s anyone in there. Seeing no one I make this my new home or shelter from the rain this dose not concern me because I’m only domed to death now. I sleep there even after the rain stopped I don’t know how long but I felt and it seemed that I was dying I did not care. A was woken up by a horrific scream and cry for brutal help. I slowly get up and see a man and woman the woman is in tears and struggling to be free of the man’s grasp. The man is forcing him self on to her. I act with out consciousness and punch the man, as he struggled to his feet I kick him he falls down and he pulls out a knife. He grabs the girl who lays there faint from surprise put the knife one her neck and said come near me and I kill the girl. I look in to his petrified eyes and say go ahead kill her. At this instant her eyes fluttered open and said “please help me please sir I’ll give you anything”. As the man’s tremulous looked unsteady I asked the man to please hurry and kill her if he wanted he smiled dumbfound. At that moment I sized his hand and the women had fainted yet again. Laid her gently on the floor gently at that instant the man put the knife in gut. I fall on the floor I swiftly get to my feet with the knife in hand. My feet kicked him to his knees and with no retard I put the knife thought his heart killing him instantly. Interestingly the lady got to her feet unharmed and said what a fine day it is to day sir at that moment it went black. Waking to a warm room I look around in no mood for sleep I staggered to the door before I got there it was thrown open and a nurse seeing me on the floor helped me and apologized many time. My throat was dry and all I could say was water she apologized again and came back with water and food to my surprise she was kind and warm. Telling me all about her lady and how she was kind, beautiful, and smart was, wanted by all men that see her. Then the lady walked in the nurse quickly greeted and left the room. She truly was beautiful now that I was not blind by my pains. Her name was Diana her father died a year ago and she was alone. I married her at her request. I worked hard in the business her father left behind to savages. The man who was the manager wanted her hand in married and she refused. Was kidnapped almost killed and was saved by me a man asking for death. Some nights I felt no will to be man I cried in her arms she asked me nothing of my pass and did not pry. A year had pass and Diana was barring a child I had no will to upset her because she loved me. When she was giving birth she passed away and the son that I held in my arms for to many short hours had died in my armed. She was no longer hear to wipe my tears and give me her strengths after that my heart went cold and everything I did was work. I gained more money then I have ever seen in my life time. The nurses that care for us were now as rich as any lady I knew. I told her to leave and live her life as she wanted she thanked me many times and was married within the year. I retuned home to a cold and unwelcoming home and with no love. When I sold the grand house and business I no longer wanted I knew it was time to go the life I once thought I knew with a cold heart and no sympathy.