When I return we will set the wedding date and announce to our friends, AMOUNT foremost, and it blurs a bit of my joy. It’s going to be shocked and surprised a charge will be for me, because he had more confidence. Why I have not had a glimpse, at least, my projects? Have I taken the courage to speak his desire, vaguely indicated, to give me in marriage to Ellen? That, precisely, ought to make me.

The truth is that never has spoken clearly on this issue and it’s ridiculous to give an honor impertinence that no one offers. I say this to justify myself and I can not. The truth is that I cowardly retreated to what I was sad to say, I had the chance to get by, and I am now in a hurry cruel. And if it were true what is Luciana, if Elena had been mistaken about the feelings that inspire me, I have committed a bad deed … Fortunately I do not, and this reassures me.

While walking recently, this case of conscience under the vaults of the great Cathedral of Antwerp, at dusk, I seemed to see Elena as he appeared in Quimper, a moonbeam, like a fantastic creature, a being of pure spirituality. When I’m away from it, that’s how I see it and so will have gone through my life.