Here comes the master of all deceits and heartaches. Temptations keep on knocking on the door.The lustful desire keeps on haunting you even in your sleep. You are human, bound to make mistakes. So you succumb to your weaknesses. You kneel to the earthly cravings of your body. You bow to your selfish needs. You devour everything and anything that looks appetizing enough. You melted and blended to what you think is pleasurable to your urging body.

I was left alone wondering what went wrong. Where did I go wrong? Have I been too demanding of your love and time that you feel like breaking free from me now? Or have I been too giving that you feel neglected, abandoned and unwanted?

I don’t understand. We tried to search for the answer. Somehow, somewhere we were doing something not quite right that we overlooked. Now, that wrong is eating us up, killing our love and respect for each other. We tried to compromise.

We tried to fix the things we believe are  the reasons for all the troubles we are in to right now. But, why? Over and over again we found ourselves fighting over the same things. Why we have never learned our lessons? Why we often forget to take care of each others feelings the way we used to?

Why keep on lying? While keep on playing fire behind my back? Why made me a fool? Don’t you respect me anymore? Don’t I deserve the love you used to have for me?

You broke my heart repeatedly. Each time you do it the pain is as intense as it was the first time. However, every time you fall and ask for another chance, I just can’t let you suffer alone in remorse. I have given you countless chance I never imagined I have in store with in me.

I am hoping you will realize how much you mean to me. I am wishing you will see how i am fighting for our love to  survive. Praying that you will hear my calling, pleading to stand by me like the way you used to. But, you are deaf, the call of your own desire to seek pleasure from other things and other people is more louder than my plea. You are blind. What you see now are the things and the people you think and hope will give you the satisfaction and happiness you are looking for. You are numb. You can only feel what your own selfish needs, ignoring my need for your love, respect and honesty.

I am human, too. My heart is tired from waiting. It can never be broken again. Not by your lies, betrayals, unfaithfulness, not even by your neglect. You have successfully crushed it to its finest. I can give nothing anymore  nor tears to shed.Because the more I give, the more you are taking me for granted. I am only human. I have come to an empty shell, there’s nothing left to give, there’s nothing even left for me to start with.

Now, we have come to an end. A sad and painful end. We did not choose this. We did not even anticipated this, did we? I believe not. But this is our reality. We both have enough. It is time to create a new beginning. A new life, separate from each other.

A time to say our goodbyes. One last sweet kiss, a final gentle embrace,  hoping, wishing, praying that one day you will come to your senses how much I have loved you.