I am going for it nothing seems to matter, My over sized fiance my wonderful little girl that meant so much to me . they are all in past and can do much better i don’t deserve them. Here i go from 10 to 60mph i see the bridge wow this is it. the truck slides  andi get spit out like shell out of a shot gun .The next thing i here is are u OK buddy, i am in the ambulance they start asking me all this questions i just close my eyes and act like i am out of it think what in the world can i not do any thing right so we are off the er. oh boy the family is here

     And then here comes the queen B of all as i am taped down to the table she tells me this is it i cant handle this anymore we are done, then she reaches in my pockets and takes out what money i have and say thanks like a big kiss my butt , I had no idea that i said anything to anybody in the hospital about me trying to kill myself . Well i guess i did they are not going to let u leave its prob good that they didn’t i would have ate a chainsaw or something stupid , so i end up in a psych ward come to find out that i am bi polar .

     So after five days of that place i get out to find that i have no truck no home and nothing left of my person belongings people this is coming to you live from my parents house as i sit here in my dads underwear , i might get to see my daughter this week. I’ll be 33 in 2 weeks now not sure how to act or what to think my of another way to end it pretty sure that’s not an option because the next step down from were i am is dead i think i will try to go up maybe get a job buy my daughter some toys get a place of my own and maybe some of my own underwear.