In sixth grade I was alone with no friends because of the transition from elementry to middle school and I got sucked into a group that liked smoking cigarettes. So I was curious to see what it feels like and I loved it.

About a month later I loved pot. I was the bigest stoner ever and I would never stop talking about it. My life sober was depresing so it felt great to forget it all with some pot and my friends. But it all turned when I was caught. I was sober for 2 months and I was on the doorstep of death every day.

I was just trying to think of a reason to not kill myself. But, of course, soon I started heavier marijuana use and was getting high for weeks at school. By then my best buddy Judah had moved on to ecstasy and so I did too. We were doing lines of ecstasy in class and started cocaine.

I liked doing every thing but one day we got our hands on some yellow alien ecstasy which is mixed with pcp and speed. When judah slept over that night he nearly overdosed on the ecstasy and we were drinking vodka and tequila. The next day Judah had too much of both and was sent to the hospital.

My dad who is a cop randomly drug tests me now. Its been five months I have been sober but every day I fight the urge to use drugs and I have ADHD and serious deppresion.

That is my story.