I have wanted to share my intimate moments of my life with another soul for quite a while now ever since i came to have memory i have wanted another soul in my life. 1st there was my dog i loved him very much we shared the same plate for dinner and he usually has half or more of my food, I’m not that keen on eating even now i don’t like some food, like most people obviously, because he ate from my plate he was used to it and only from my plate and unfortunately he died after i moved away while there was a war and he dies of starvation. I didn’t take him with me because we needed him to look after our house and our grandparents. he died while i came to the UK and they buried him in our back garden.

2nd my 1st actual crush was of lust and i didn’t even know it till later when also in the UK, when i learned about sex-ed and then i realized that it wasn’t love but lust and i kinda hated that. Her name was Thavayogini she was in my year four, in all my years of living 24 years and 7 months i have never attended year five in school, because i was told to do bad things to people that came too close i stabbed her with a pencil and i don’t think she like’s me anymore and that’s not her real name, just in-case she’s reading this. She always kept her distance i now figure that it was out of fear rather than anything i have thought it would be.

3rd my second was a Swiss girl by the name of Manuela, also not her real name, she reminds me of someone as i write this she is also short and hot and very attractive. She paid no attention to me what so ever and not even a hi ever to me, but i still remember her, kinda sad is it, anyway she was one foot shorter than me and had long hair and it was brown and i loved that about her probably the only thing that was nice to me. I also had some friends some male and some female and that made the life a little nicer, seriously i loved that lifestyle and i would like to one day go back there and start a family not with her but with that blond baby sitter that had sex with me while i had fallen down and was on top of her she pushed me back and then done a cow-girl on me, to say i enjoyed it is not the truth i had no clue and i was half unconscious through out the ordeal all i saw was her on top of me going up and down for a few minutes about 3 or 4, it was 1st time for me and then i got up and still was trying to catch her. After my father prolonged affair even after my mother joined him in Swiss he continued and so she packed up and left for the UK with the help of her siblings and some of dads. The journey was not pleasant at all.