Carol was tense standing at the kitchen sink. She had dreaded this all evening, but she knew that they had to talk about this. Although she had already made her mind up, she would be leaving in the morning. Carol felt that she had to tell him how hurt she is and that she wished that he could have loved her. Oh, he has said those words numerours times since Timothy was born, now she knew why. By marrying her and them having a child, well, the farm is his now. So there is no need for her to stay. He has what he wanted.

  Lucus waited for Carol to sit at the table before he started talking. “I know what you must be thinking. Let me explain, please?” Carol looked at Lucus long and hard, then told him in a low voice,”You have no idea what I’m thinking or how I feel. How could you? You don’t care about me, you never have. I feel certain you love Timothy and why wouldn’t you, you are his father. Just so you know, I’ll be taking our son and leaving this house in the morning. I won’t interfer with you spending time with him. He needs you in his life. You have your farm Lucus, you don’t need a to worry about taking care of a wife anymore.” Lucus watched her for a minute or two, for a sign that she still cared for him. All he could see was the hurt on her face and hear it in her voice. Her eyes had a hollow look, like the light had went right out of them.

  “Will you let me explain about this? Then if you still want to leave, I won’t stop you. It’s not something I want, but right now your happiness is what matters.” Lucus whispered. ”I’m listening.” she replied. Lucus wasn’t sure where to start, so he began at the beginning.

  My father tried to control my every move. He spoke to the animals in a kinder voice then he did me. He was always telling me, that I’d never amount to anything. He was a hard hearted man even to my mother. I believe he set out to make people fear him and most of the time, he did a damn good job. As I got older, I was so angry, that all I felt for him was contempt, I despised him. He knew this and didn’t care. He tried to keep me on my knees and I refused to let him . When he got sick, I did come back to take care of the farm. I had hoped he would get better, then I could go back to my own life, but that didn’t happen. I had no idea that he had his will made out the way he did. That was just his way at getting to me even after death. This farm has been in my family for over 100 years. I was trying to fight the will, then I saw you at the market. There was something about you that made me think of settling down. Sure, when we married I wasn’t sure what I felt for you. All I know is, that I had never had those feelings before. I know now why I felt helpless when I wasn’t with you. Why I needed to see you, to be with you, just to sit on the porch or go for a walk. To have your hand in mine and to look at your beautiful face everyday. When I thought I was going to lose you when Timothy was born” Lucus had to clear his throat, he looked straight at Carol and she could see the tears in his eyes ” I knew at that moment that I loved you. I’ll spend the rest of my life loving you. I know right now, you don’t like me much for not telling you about my father and I’m sorry. We have been so happy, that I hadn’t thought about the will. I just hope that in time you can forgive me.” Lucus walked out the back door into the yard. He left Carol to think about what he had said, Oh well, he will have to wait and see what happens.