[…Sa-a-a-d movies always make me cry…
He said he had to work so I went to the show alone
They turned down the lights and turned the projector on
And just as the news of the world started to begin
I saw my darlin' and my best friend walk in…]

“What’s the title of this song?” I asked Irene while waiting for the movie to start. But instead for replying her attention was on her mobile phone waiting for her boyfriend’s call. I must admit I dragged her to watch the Proposal with me at knife point.

“Sad Movies.”came her reply. “I think this is the only theatre playing old songs.”

I nodded, but in an instant my heart skipped a bit as I remembered my boyfriend Keith.

Keith Young was the name of my boyfriend. We’ve been a couple for almost a two years now. And I would be a hypocrite in denying the fact that my boyfriend gradually changed. No, it wasn’t the change that makes the girl’s heart flutter with excitement, but the opposite.

Bea, my other best friend scolded me by saying that I shouldn’t compare the Keith before and the present. Of course, it was just normal for a boyfriend to change…maybe I unconsciously did change, too.

Was I just being paranoid? Should I still understand him even though he doesn’t text me as much as he used to? Should I just let it go, when he forgotten my birthday last month? Should I just laugh it off when he tells me we shouldn’t celebrate our monthsaries? How about him walking out when we had misunderstandings instead of saying “sorry” when he’s at fault?

I shook my head and sighed. Maybe I was just paranoid, right? Just then my eyes caught a very familiar couple making their way just two seats in front of us.

{…Yesterday…}

“Honey, I don’t think I can accompany you tomorrow.”

I stopped writing and stared at Keith. “Why?”

“Because you know I hate chick flicks movies.”

“But there’s Ryan Reynolds, isn’t he your favorite actor?” I asked.

Keith raised his face and met his eyes with mine. “Yes he is, but still its a chick flick movie.”Then sighed continue writing, “anyway, I still can’t join you because my cousin  will be coming tomorrow and I will be the one who will fetch her. Go, with Irene okay?” He looked at me and smiled.

“I won’t watch it then.” I said angrily.

{…Present…}

My heart was totally torn into pieces as I watched the two sat down. It was no doubt my boyfriend Keith and a girl. D.amn! Because of my poor eyesight I couldn’t see the face of the girl he’s with.

“Cousin?”I whispered. I didn’t know he would be that close to his cousin. I am not that close to my cousin Michael. I don’t rest my head on my cousin Michael’s shoulder like Keith’s cousin doing to him.

I gripped my popcorn box tighter as I saw Keith turn and stared at her with the loving eyes he used to give me. I swallowed and held my breathe.

This picture was wrong.

F.uck! He should be sitting beside me and not Irene, he should be looking at me with those loving eyes, smile at me and not her!

There were so much things that were running to my head. I want to stand up and threw my popcorn at them, pour them with my soda and Irene’s. Hammer their heads with my newly bought shoes, punch their faces and to embarrass them.

So many things, but I couldn’t

I felt my chest has been ran over by a bulldozer over and over and over again.

I can’t freaking breathe.

I think I was going to die right on this very spot.

Why can’t I take my eyes off the two? Was I still trying to figure out what his cousin looks like?

“Are you okay?” It’s Irene.

I nodded.

Can I tell her that she’s right about Keith? Can I tell her that he’s sitting right in front of us without me freaking out?

{…Five Hours Ago…}

“Why wouldn’t you believe me?” Irene screamed right into face. “I saw him and a girl inside a car! God, its just a pity that I wasn’t able to see who that bi.tch is.”

“He’s not having an affair, girl.” I replied smiling, “he’s with his cousin.”

“So how can you explain his sudden change of behavior? He’s becoming a jerk now.”

I flinched. She’s right. He did change, maybe I wasn’t paranoid.

“Wake up, girl! He’s cheating you right under your nose.”

“You just don’t like him. Why don’t you be like Bea?”

Irene blinked. “That was before…like ages ago!” She sighed. “Besides, Bea is like you. You don’t see the person’s bad side. You always see the good side in people.”

“What’s wrong with that?”

“Anyway, I told you, girl, he’s definitely having an affair.”

{…Present…}

Irene’s right.

[…Though I was sitting there they didn't see
And so they sat right down in front of me
When he kissed her lips I almost died
And in the middle of the color cartoon I started to cry…]

I felt my heart was pulled out my chest and crushed as I finally knew who the girl Keith’s with.

It’s Bea.

God, my boyfriend and my best friend. I never felt this betrayed. My best friend who told me that I was just being paranoid.

My very best friend who I was thankful for convincing Irene that Keith’s a good guy.

My best friend…and my boyfriend.

What’s more painful than this?

I finally blinked and felt my tears pouring down my face as the whole place was getting dimmer. I shut my eyes and pray this was all just a dream–but it wasn’t.

“Samantha, are you okay? Why are you crying?” She whispered to my ear. ”Is it because of how I acted few hours ago? Sorry…maybe I was wrong. Don’t cry okay?” I felt her rubbing my shoulders and pulling my head to her shoulders. “Shhhh…Sorry…”

After a few breathes I pulled myself together and faced her. “Shh…” and smiled. “Give me a minute.” I whispered to her and stood up. I slowly walked away from Irene…from Keith…and from Bea.

[…And so I got up and slowly walked on home

And mama saw the tears and said “what's wrong?”
And so to keep from telling her a lie
I just said “sa-a-a-d movies make me cry”…]