Dear Editor,

As a child i was asking too much at my parents and those who are older than me what it really feels like to be in love. how does it feel to have someone to love and someone that you would have for your own to call him your love. The curiosity if gives me every time i think about what is love and what are its mysteries that it hold for me. why does some people are happy and some are in pain because of love. I know i’m already familiar about some other types of love like my love for my parents but i want to experience the kind of love where i can say it its just you and me baby. I was young back then and didn’t know how ignorant i was. How dreams of prince charming, and knight in shining armor could be so different in real life. I’m an 18 year old girl by the way, yes i’m still a girl duh i always put my self in denial that i don’t to be old yet. I’m scared of the responsibility that i should hold if i am already at that age. Anyway thats not what i am sharing to you today. I’m about to share my very own experience in having a first time relationship with someone that i actually love and boy it was so painful in the end. I think i will kill myself after sharing this story to you JOKE im still too young for that.

It started when i was in the midst of my years where i was growing into a beautiful lady i was already at the age of 13 that day. My very first boyfriend was my very own childhood best friend. we were together as good friends since 6years old playing together, eating together, sleeping together and even taking baths together when we were young(cant believe what we were doing when we were young). well thats what you call innocent and young for you. anyway i can still remember when we were young that he shared to me the she would find a princess to take care and protect someday. I didn’t think that i would be that princess. Neither did he expected too. Well since he was a friend of mine so close and more that best friend in fact so i let him into my heart. I gave my heart to him a a sign for him that i trust him even more now compared to the trust a gave him when we were still friends. It was happy days always in our relationship. Well, not all the time, we have fights and arguments from time to time but we fix it immediately we have rules that we wont wait for a day or more to when we have conflicts. Hes sweet and he do the best he can to please me and he was always there for me every time i’m down or stress is coming down on me. hes the perfect guy for me and i thought he will be with me forever. But i never expect or perceive what the future lies for us. its was very happy then but i never thought that it even how perfect for your your relationship is theres no telling if its forever or not. For me i learned that the hard way. It was going well for the first years of my life with him. But on our 2nd anniversary he became bothered somehow,it creeps me out every time he say that things will always be okay. He said i love you to me very uniquely that time as if there were meaning that linger inside those words. As if it pierces my heart that he was trying to say something. Sadly my hunch was right he then admitted to me a few weeks after that he was already dying because of a certain disease. I never thought that it would end this way. But because i loved him so much i cant leave him and i promised him to be by his side until the end.