STRESS

Hi there, I am so stressed out I want to scream, Let me tell you why and let me start from the beginning.  When I met my husband he told me he had this neutrology condition-he explained it as his nerves did not click with his brain. Anyways I dated him I lived with him and I got married to him and he seemed like a regular person.  In the month of November 2009 he was diagnosed with by polar, neither one of us was happy about it. 

He has to take all these pills and it makes him drowsy, and wobboly, vision gets fuzzy, and his brain gets stupider, but this is not the part that makes me stressed out, what makes me stressed out is the way he treats me.  He screams at me a lot, he is very negative, every little thing I do is wronghe nit picks, he is always depressed, he uses a lot of the “F” word at the beginning of each sentence or sometimes before each word, he does not joke around anymore-he used to joke every second of the day. 

It seems to me that he is not the same person I married.  I feel that I have to be strong for him and I have to be strong for me, and when family and friends come over I have to pretend like everything is wonderful, and that takes a lot out of me.  One time we went dowtowm Toronto to a little place called china town to look at a couple of things-in the store we were writting some prices down and I was writting these prices down on a low little table they had he actually pulled my hair and directed me to another place that was not so low, and that was what really burned me up. 

I feel like sometimes I would like to divorce him, but then I think aboult the vows- you know for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health……I have been losing a lot of weight because of it and it is getting to get dangerous weight.  I have strageties to cope with these such as: crying, venting, being with friends but then he will say something and then all the stress comes back and I don’t want to constamtly go a friends and vent because then that friend won’t want to be with me because all I do is vent.    

Now we are also thinking about moving to Nova Scotia because it is really hectic down here so now we are in the process of selling the house and packing and running into new challenges so you add that into the equation and you twice as much stress.  My husbanmd actually went to Nova Scotia as  a scouting trip,to see what was available and to see if it was smartto move  or not smart to move and he decided that after doing a lot of research it is smart to move so when he left for 6 days I was fine the stress went away but every time he caleed I got stressed out and when he came back all the stress came back on top of me and plus more, I have ni idea what to do?