Hi, x. That is quite a stirring read. In times like these, it’s important to remember, it’s perfectly okay to feel vulnerable, and that the grieving process is different for everyone. I’m glad to see that you’re finding a venue for your anxiety. This means that you are dealing with it, that you are handling it. Do not begrudge your mother for having the strength that she does; different people come by their strength in different ways. You may have had to face these hardships head on, but you don’t have to go through it all without taking from something from it. Thanks for being so willing to share.

Oh, and, … you have more strength than you give yourself credit for.