I am a person that lives the same way day to day, year to year. I wake up, do exactly the same each day, and the only thing on my mind: girls. About how miserable i am, not being able to get a girlfriend. Well, after watching the south park episode: Raisins, from season 7, today, i made up my mind. In this episode, Wendy dumps Stan, and he turns into a gothic, hating everything about life. Butters meets a girl, that never loved him, but he thinks she does. When she finally tells him she is not his girlfriend, he goes outside in the rain and sits on the street crying. When Stan and the gothic see him, they ask him to join the gothics. Butters though, refuses because he says: I love life. I know there is a lot of pain in your life, but you have to live through that. Feeling pain makes me realize i am alive. This is the thing that i had on my mind the last few years. I know it is true, but i did not really believe it is. Seeing this episode made me see that actually, I am some kind of gothic, being pissed off all the time, making other people dislike me. So my good initiative for 2012: Be happy!