The Truth: it is the absolute worst thing in the world to come to terms with. At times, it is downright the worst thing to tell; sometimes, even more so, it is the worst thing to hear; however, words cannot describe how terrible it is when the truth is both. It is the line that is drawn between reality, and what we wish and pretend it is. Despite everything we make it out to be and pretend it’s not, the Truth is an absolute.
We can’t escape it, no matter how hard we try; it’s always knocking at the door in our mind, making us question what we know and answer what we don’t. We can’t mask it up with lies; it always falls off and leaves the truth lying out in the open. It hurts us; glorifies us; proves us; shatters us. It can bring people together, or tear two apart. And no matter how much we try to hide it- whether from ourselves or others- it always throws guilt at us until we let it out.

I am the exception to this Absolute.

Everyone has their secrets, and everyone eventually lets them out into the world: telling a boyfriend, a best friend, a diary. But not me. My secret I can never share; it is my life, or something like it. I have no guilt in hiding it, in lying to everyone I’ve ever known. To share my secret with anyone, even the people I have had the most trust in, would be to throw myself into a medical lab; to be called insane and put into an institution; to lose everything I have gained in life.

I have lost love a hundred and one times over; watched friends be dead and burried, and cried over their graves year after year.

And I haven’t aged a day.

If I said I had a curse, it would be an understatement; if you told me I was the walking dead, I would let you feel my heartbeat; if you said I was insane, I would show you all my past photos. I am no vampire- I believe them to be only in books and movies. I am the only one I have known to be like this; I’ve searched medical records and newspaper reports through the years, and found nothing like my… case. My family all died a timely death, of natural causes, but never me.