So we chatted and begun to know each other bit by bit, and i started to really like her. and then came October. The month i really learned to hate last year. A lot of snow and i lost her. The friend of mine with whom i hadn’t talked much dated a boy named hardi and after hardi and Anni broke up hardi decided to get together with Kiku and after a week or so Kiku and hardi started dating or to be more exact they had a date, because hardi really believed that hes over Anni but he wasn’t and because he couldn’t get Anni he thought that it would be a good idea to fuck up Anni’s life.

But Kiku was really down because she had already really started to like hardi and because hardi had broke up with her after one date, she fell into depression and the only person she told that she is in depression at first was me. i was really surprised because she didn’t tell it to her friends whom she had been in the same class for 5 years. even though i didn’t do anything much i helped her get over it. And she was grateful because i was there for her.

And then i was sure that i am in love with her. But since she had already once picked someone else over me i believed that shes not into me and i started talking a bit less with her and a bit more with other people. by the second half of December i had started to talk with a person named merille and well to be honest she was exactly like me we liked the same things and we shared the same interest. and i started to like her to but only as a friend nothing more. I told Kiku about Merille and she was sure that I’m in love with Merille . I tried to make Kiku believe that I’m not in love with Merilee but that i love her she finally believed me.

we had a few days of fun again and then we had a little fight about something stupid and my parents were  really upset with me because of something and took away my PC without  giving me a chance to even tell her goodbye. the next day i went to hiiumaa and she went to saaremaa  for Christmas. The day after Christmas i sent her an sms explaining what happened and she answered saying that she wanted to see me when i get back. we hadn’t seen each other for months by that time.

I was a bit afraid to see her thinking that i would do something stupid and so i stayed at hiiumaa until new year and then i came back to Tallinn with the first chance i had. a few days later we met. it was fun and i believe that she had fun too. a few weeks passed we met at least once a week or so.

Until one weekend when we went to a party together. We went there by bus and i was thinking bout something and she thought that i was ignoring her. At the party a friend of Kiku who was with us passed out on my knees and Kiku was fazed by that. A few days after the party she said that she had been in love with me before all of the merille thing and she said that she had regained the love for me before that party but now she doesn’t believe that we could be together.

Now the name of the story is Haters Gonna Hate because when ever there are problems in your life you always have chance. you can either try to solve the problem or ignore it. since I’m a person who usually ignores the problems I’m a hater most of the time. but when it comes to love i hoped that maybe this time it will go the way i would like , but no i still were Abel to fuck everything up