It was my first time to be in a relationship. At first, everything’s going well but as time passed by struggles, pains and hurts were inevitable. I tried to fix the broken roads. I tried not to focus on the problems and continue loving the person despite the fact that I was really hurt for what he did. But because I cannot control everything, this relationship collapsed. This made me mad and furious and bitter. Many times, this person asked for my forgiveness. For how many times, he told me he is sorry for all the things that he has done and regretted it. After a year, I was able to forgive and my life became normal again.

But I would never imagine that after several years, I would encounter this same name again. Only with a different meaning. I was on a weekend retreat which, if given a chance, I wouldn’t go and attend. But then, I did not regret attending this event. I learned a lot and wisdom was imparted on me. Every session, they would ask us, “What’s your name?’. But at the last session, we were given names. All my groupmates got the exact description of their lives or who they really are. Guess what’s my name? It was Braveheart!

All along, my picture of braveheart was my past. But no, it was not him. It is me. This name that has long been forgotten then suddenly it popped in front of me and I laughed! I realized that despite the hardships and pains, I was able to stand up. I was trying to save the relationship. I was not giving up that time. He was the one who gave up and gave in.God reminded me that I have the character of a true braveheart. Now I know. Just like William Wallace in the movie Braveheart, he did not give in, he did not give up even though he will already be killed in the Tower of London. He was given the final chance, but instead of submitting to the wicked king, he shouted “Freedom!”.

In the eyes of God, I have not lost that Braveheart. I thank God that I don’t need to look for one, because I already have it. All along it is ME. =)

Cover of Braveheart (Sapphire Series) [Blu-ray]