Today I made ​​the difficult decision to stop running from you. Also you belong to this city and nothing I can do about it. I have decided to settle indefinitely, knowing that in every corner, every street and every place, I will find a passage reflected our shared lives.

I know that by reading the morning paper on some bench at Centenary Park, I will find couples holding their hands and kissing passionately. I’ll remember then, how annoying it was a kiss in front of people and the way that subtly repressed my urges with your delicate hands resting on my chest.

I do not care to go to religious services and occupy the front pew of La Merced church where you moved to tears during marriage ceremonies and asked me a handkerchief, and then you reprimanded me for not always carry one in my back pocket.

I’m not worried anymore to walk over Lafragua street and to bump into the balloon sellers, no longer hasten the transition to the primitive fear that you asked me one of those enormous balloon figures of Walt Disney; the only time I gave you one, you were hitting with it the face of sleepy passengers of public transport, and I behind you, apologizing to each one of them.

Today, I learned to overcome the dangers involved walking through crowded downtown streets and look at the same time sensual feminine curves. Not suffer a pinch anymore, come by your irrational outbursts of jealousy that they did not understand any of my explanations as well-founded but still immune to your silly logic called “women’s intuition”.

I can sit quietly and enjoy an aromatic expresso and read a Garcia Marquez’s book as the only companion. Never will you tell off for sip loudly or worn gibberish about the upset parishioners by the sounds.

Your absence will protect me from the interruptions of my reading to ask an opinion on the TV soap opera of the moment or the latest celebrity gossip.

Today I feel more comfortable in the city, less oppressive … as a different city.

And yet I do not mean you have a burden on me, it’s just that when you disappeared from my life I find so many things to do than I don’t know how to start.

I’ll begin by steel myself and draw strength, do not know where to stop petting this cold stone where your name is etched so so gross.

I brought a bouquet of white chrysanthemums, since you liked more than the margaritas … I know that today I made ​​an important decision, but do not know if I will find a way to get up and face this old city, where every corner gives me a smile saturated with melancholy …