For example, I can’t play guitar but I thought I could under the influence and I laughed all the time. Everyone thought I was more cool of a person when I was under the influence of weed. Well, previous to that I did alcohol all the time and everyone thought I was one of the funnest drunks they have ever hung out with.

Well, in February or January this year we had a big party celebration for one of the holidays and it was at my friends house. We were playing rockband and everyone told me to take a mixed drink. Someone made me a drink. I drank 2 of them and they had a lot of alcohol. More than a mixer and I smoked 4 or 5 hits of weed prior to that. 12 minutes later it all hit me and my body. I had increased heart rate, anxiety, and i was in a panic attack mode. I felt like I was going to die.

I was sweating, I started hallucinating, music and noises scared me, I ran into my friends room, locked the door and shut the lights off and hid in the corner shaking and rocking. I wrote on her wall with sharpie marker because I felt like I was going to die and to take the thought off my mind I scribbled pictures. I was so scared when I got krunk(under influence of alcohol and weed) for the first time.

I do not remember what happened and everyone told me what I was saying the night before. I was saying things like take me to the hospital, call 911, I think i am going to die, and the only thing I remember is that everyone just laughed and said do you want to go outside.