As I was picking up cans this morning it dawned on me thaqt I really need to thank my oldest sister.After all if she’d have kept her mouth shut I would probably have a job right now.I pretty sure that since she molested me she had some thought(little though it might be)she was doing me a favor.Or as she put it ,”She saved my life.”Ruined is more like it.Oh well,being a paranoid schizophrenic I’m positive that she has no ideal what she’s doing.

For instance her oldest son is gay,not just gay but screaming.She insists he’s straight,while her youngest,who she is convinced is gay is on the make 24/7.While she has convinced herself that she is a ‘good’ Christian.I guess,if by good Christian you mean one who stabs in the back,poisons animals,Deals crank,and lies while holding her New Testament(She doesn’t beleive in the Old Testament,it’s for those G.D. Jews,she says.)Of course the Church she attends that would seem to be thier pastime.To be a fly on the wall on Sunday Morning at some of these peoples houses.I mean I went to school with some of these people.Her husband and her could never figure out why,a lot of times,my opinion of the same people was a hell of a lot lower than thiers.After all you can put a suit on a pig but you still have a pig.

Of course I suppose that’s the way things work.My older brother molests her;she molested me.It pretty much ends there,I never did like kids,and I have an aversion to being put in a situation where some lunatic such as herself can attempt to point the finger at me.She convinced herself that I was molesting our mother,and I was gay,etc.

Both my sisters are always after me to apply for disability,they just don’t understand,having a backstabbing family(in general)is not considered a disability!No matter how you cut it.But she gets a check,she convinced some quack that she has cancer of the asshole.So S.S.I. sends her a check every month.Which is good considering she blew through the insurance money from her husbands death in no time.

A person could get the ideal that I’m down on Christians,I’m not.Just on her little version of it,is all.At least she’s consistent,no matter what happens ,who rips me off or stabs me in the back I’m assured that she and the remaining members of my family will take the other side.

Years ago one of thier friends was on her honeymoon and an emergency arose.She and her husband were camping at Ft.Cobb(To be specific,Nowhere,Oklahoma) in Oklahoma.We spent the better part of the night driving up and down the wrong roads,because to have went down the right none would have acknowledge that I knew what the hell I was talking about.We’d probably still be there but Charles decided to prove I didn’t know what I was talking about and headed off down the road I had been pointing out.And there they were .

Of course it can be really entertaining at times,watching them prove me right while trying to prove me wrong.I have never been as mean-spirited as the rest of our bunch but I can be.I guess I paid attention,for the most part,in Sunday School.What she was doing I have no ideal.