For the past days of vacation, many things happened in my life. Some are to be understood, some are cannot be understand but the good thing is there are certain things that I understand. My mind keeps on thinking and thinking about how life runs out. Including our problems or might say of most people are challenges. I learn that you will not know of a thing if you are not catch on it or in simple say, you will not understand a situation if you are within that. Life is a matter of patience, trust, faith and kindness against all our problems. It’s up to the people how they handle themselves.

In fact, as of now, the practical routine of one’s life is revolving around his self, family, job, and relationship and the core of these is love, the salient feeling in this world. I could still recall a friend who keeps on asking my love life. He asked me if what my ideal man is. And he keeps me thinking about it. I answered that, no one can say or answer unless that man comes in my life. Love is the most beautiful creation of God. Everybody experience this in time with different situation but it is complementary with negativities in this world such as pain and sacrifice. Interrelated with love are friendship, family tie and career and we known that it is sometimes contradicted with each other.

We just need to depend each of them kindly. In reality, our family experiences a problem, misunderstanding on how to solve a conflict about proper handling an artificial being. For me, they just need to show real generosity, understanding, kindness, a real helping hand and setting aside their pride but I think its hard for them to do such action and I just hope and pray because I don’t have the rights to command those person ahead in me. On the other hand are my best friends who occur in different reality of life like early marriage and conflict in marriage. An as usual, it is connected with their love life; I just need to support, listen and help them as long as I can. Sometimes, I’m setting aside my own challenges just for them and for me; it is a good thing about friendship, showing care.

I just keep on wishing that they may overcome it and I’m hoping to fulfill their dreams if they can’t just for them. Not to forget is my family. We are extended family at home and it has disadvantages and advantages. We have learned to adjust with this advantages and disadvantages. But I can say that we have a strong family tie although we do not belong to class A person, we know the meaning and action of love, humility and family although there are some problems, it’s human nature to face it fight for it. Lastly is about my self. For now, I keep on carrying my cross. Like the homily’s message, every person carries their own cross and God knows what will be the end of this.

These vacation days, I really felt pain in my heart but I need to be strong for the person who really loves me. I need to achieve my goal through using my heart to handle others and using my mind to handle myself. For me, it’s a fulfillment to accomplish a thing by my own merits and reaching my expectation and not the expectation of others. Life is really fair but not all the time. We have to understand that some things occur for a good cause. Bad and good are complementary to realize the worth of life and our existence.

Life is a circle; we do not know the start and end point of it. This composition is not against me or to any body; maybe it has no direction, not specific but a reality; this is just the words that excrete by my mind to satisfy my heart and to have a better sleep tonight. I’m not saying that those things written here will be fit to my life all the time because no one can tell what will be. I may be catch by my own words but it’s up to me to understand. Thank God and to any one whom read this.