Sometimes we dream of simple things, daily things that life generally follows. Other times, we find things others find so simple to be beyond our reach.

Most of us aspire to be the best person we can be. I have always wanted to be able to have a decent job, pay my bills on time and take care of my family without having to rely on family.

To me it seems those things would be easy to accomplish, however for me it has not been. I haven’t been able to provide for my family without help. It is not simply a matter of pride, it is a matter of self – worth. It makes me wonder what my purpose in life is. I know life is suppose to be a series of tests.

I have searched for jobs and not been able to find one. It makes me wonder what I can do to better my job search results. I have tried to better myself with learning certain skills. I know I cannot take things personally, yet at times I cannot help it and should know better. I am a middle aged woman who should be able to accomplish things I know I need to do.

I realized I sometimes set goals way to high to meet, not unrealistic goals just to me for some reason unattainable.

All of us have difficulties we must overcome, I know that other people have worse plights than I have.

I know I have gotten in a circle of thought, that I know what needs to be done, and do not know what to do to change my situation.

I have never wanted to be famous or popular, I simply wanted to accomplish what seems so easy to accomplish, yet still seems so far out of reach. Something where I can look back and “say this is what I was able to accomplish”. Instead of wondering what I could do differently and if I somehow went wrong.