Every once in a while, we let our hearts explode.  Explode in a sense that we let it all out, we pour everything— negative or positive feelings and emotions.  In everyday basis, we create what we feel because we are the one who is deciding what to feel.  We do not want to feel bad, to feel angry, to feel lonely, etc.  We all wanted to be happy.  Life is short, as they say.  Live like there is no tomorrow, as the old age say.

In each day since I have decided to live life as it is, and live life as what life is offering me, I have encountered consequences and responsibilities.  These are not just the things we see in the streets.  As I go on, doing the everyday routines, encountering few problems and heartaches never misses my path.  One day, I am very happy with the people I love, the next day, I am crying. .
One of the examples that make our life stressful is a jealoused heart. There are a lot of things to be jealoused upon, and a lot of things that causes it to appear.  The difficulty of it is, how to deal with it within yourself. I am wondering how to accept things so that I can move on and live happily again.  One day in my life, I met Jealousy.  Jealousy never failed to make me cry, he never failed to put a scar in my sensitive and emotional heart.  He had been making my days dull and problematic, not to mention the negative energies I gave to my environment.  Jealousy made my heart explode.  He won.  The good thing is, I have let him go because he had got out from my mouth.  The bad thing is, I have did things I should not do and say things I should not say.  He got a way to ruin things. 

As I think over the things that had happened, the words that were said and the actions that were made, I questioned myself, Can I continues living like this?  Should I fail myself now? It looked like I had an ice breaker.  I decided to become a strong person with God’s help.  I have decided to accept things.  I have decided to let go of everything and expect nothing so that I will not be disappointed again..  I have to regain my self-esteem, confidence and I have to gather all the pieces that were left somewhere where I was smashing what I have had long time ago. 

Today, I felt better than yesterday.  it is indeed,in our choice that will make our tomorrow.  My feelings for today were slowly reaching its calm point. I pray that I will still have the presence of mind to decide to be happy for tomorrow.