I am sitting here in a moment, the kind that has stopped me in my tracks! Realizing that this has been happening often to me I am wondering why, why now! I sat down and shut my eyes, trying now to start from the ground up, feeling I need to write for the sake of something! Sitting here, I can see a piece of the past and at the same time something in the future. In awe I listen… hearing a call, as if trying to direct me. Not questioning it and being very eager I am suddenly taken back several years ago to a time when someone ask me if I knew why I was so passionate about the way that I thought. I believe in intuition and feel that it needs to be attended to. Believing in something that you cannot see, as for me, is faith and, willingness to do without having understanding takes courage, I replied! 

Suddenly snapping out of it (as if being hypnotized or hearing the sound of a thumb and index finger snapping in my ear), I now understood how easily a lesson could be learned!

So quickly have I gained understanding for that which stopped me in my tracks earlier. Accepting I cannot change that which I see and feel. Knowing everything in this place matters, I have to do this! … For the sake of something positive (+) and knew that there was something I needed to do and, it had everything to do with my future!  This is not supposed to be about me, I thought! I have wanted so much to change what I was seeing and what I was feeling that “this” would not leave me alone until I did what it wanted me to do! Making excuses for the things that did matter and, ignoring the things that needed attention! … That is something I cannot do! Because… everything about this place matters!